Well, I have to add a gif image. Please 'cuse me for that.

Anyway, hello again. Been a whole year not coming at all, but here we are. Finally.


This is not some kind of resolution shit or new years goal thing, but more likely a, just like the title, is a "Thank You" note.
I want to wrote it down on my instagram account at first, put it on the instastory like what I always do - you know, documenting like every single thing I do every hour on stories like people give a shit while they don't - but then  I changed my mind because well, first, I kind of tired - and lazy - to edit and write it in short (I mean, I cannot write a long ass thank you essay on instastory cause who will read that stuff and it's not the place); and second, I guess I'll be rambling way too much, the thank you note will not get the point at all.
So yeah, I think I should just write it down here. On my blog. Where a long post is more common and acceptable. And less people annoyed by my long-ass written text when to stumbled upon my story on their instagram account.

And so here it is.



Anyway, please pardon that "on this first day" because, as said, I planned to post it yesterday on the first day of new year, but then too lazy to write it down and edit it to become aesthetic. So yeah, ignore it.  Anyway, tho it is not a 'set your goals' post, but this is some kind of 'reflection of last year' post, and a 'be better next year' post, similar like the post below.
Well, kinda.
Well, probably.
Well, we'll see.

Anyway, I shall start ranting and rambling, shouldn't I?


As what I said on my instagram's post aka my #bestnine post on my feed that is probably can be called as my reflection of my year kind of post, 2018 was the year where my mood for whole year is: Disappointed But Not Surprised.

Again, have to put it down. Sorry not sorry.

Where am I? Oh yeah, disappointed, but not surprised.

To sum it up - and make it easier and faster cause I'm lazy and it's already half past 4 in the morning - I will just copy and paste it from my instagram account, to here.

Funny how people you're super close with at the beginning of the year, is now no one and even feel like stranger at the end of the year. And funny how people who at the beginning of the year was clearly a stranger, is now super close to you, and you can share like almost everything with that person.Crazy how when i start this year i never thought i will get close to this person, but now before end this year, i somehow feel like i probably cant live without this person; even got worried and consider probably shall not hang too tight to this person, cause well, in the end, it will only be me and myself. 

Anyway, also as I said on my post on my instagram, there are people who helped me get through these year. People that, some are, in the description I wrote above. People that, with or without knowing it, have contribute so much in my life last year, that I myself realize even more, last couple of days.

So, you see, back to instagram story again, that a day or two before 2018 ended, I look back to all those instastories I posted the whole year, started from the beginning of 2018, as well as the feeds posts on my account. I gotta admit that I'm quite attached to my phone and instagram account that, there is no way I did not post anything, at least once in a day, on my story.
No. way.

But then, when look at it at the end of the year, it feels like all the memories come back, and honestly, it is kind of better reflection of what have you done the whole year, and what events happen to you.

So, to sums up life in 2018, couple of things shall be the highlight.

1. Resigned (and again)
In total, just in 2018, I submitted my resignation letter twice. Once from SNP, and once from DanaRupiah. Well, actually three if I counted this last one. But, it still not final and yet I still kind of work with them, so yeah, let's just go with two.
People probably knew I changed office and workplace quite some time, and stay like around a year only and then go. You may or may not agree in my view that your contribution and quality of work is better and more valuable than the period you stay in particular office. But, we're not talking about that now, so we can set it aside.
Anywa, resigning is kind of hard, actually. Because you keep looking for the right time to submit your letter.  Monday is not good cause it's beginning of the week and whole week will ruined. Tuesday is quite good but you probably out of office - or your boss out of office - and Wednesday probably the same. Thursday and  Friday is quite good cause it's kind of almost weekend, but it's most likely you are asked to 'think about it' and then 'give me final answer next week' kind of thing, so yeah. Again.
Not easy at all.
But still, I did that in 2018, and hopefully not again in 2019. We really need to changed, Ribka.

2. Unemployed
Yea well, what do you expect? I was unemployed for a month, and tho it was my decision to do so - and said that  I want to have a break and real holiday - but really, a month is quite long, apparently. But I am also glad that I can accompanied mom to go to Penang last year, and go with her to check her health.  It all good, btw. And please keep praying that it will always be good.
But anyway, unemployed. First week probably super fun, while second week you start feel bored.  Third week you already bored, and the realization that no salary this month, will start kick in. And forth week? Now you realize that you're poor, you little stupid bitch that never think twice before make a decision! WHAT THE HELL DID YOU THINKING WHEN YOU WROTE DOWN THAT DAMN LETTER, YOU SILLY!?

3. Holiday 
But good thing also happen in 2018. And some holiday slash stress free kind of moment where, you can really enjoy life. Malaysia is somehow the ultimate country to visit last year, where I went with sis - yeah, just the three of us - last April, and then I accompanied mom to Penang last June, and going holiday with people from MD Entertainment last August at the Independence Day, and feel the breeze of the beach - damn those are beautiful - and the sea and everything else.
Def gonna have another holiday this year!


Because no, I am not finish. Yet.

But I'm done explaining what happened it 2018. Told ya it was just a summary. And, as mentioned before, and actually the real purpose of this post, I really want to thank people who, I can barely survive last year, without help from them.

Sekali lagi ah.




>> DUA ORANG yang tinggal satu atap denganku, yang masih aja sanggup menghadapi kelakuan dan tingkahku sepanjang 2018. Yang kuat mental, jiwa raga, jasmani dan rohani, melihat aku dan perbuatanku di sepanjang tahun 2018, dan masih aja bisa melewati hari-hari hidup bersamaku. Dua orang yang meskipun lebih muda dari aku, tapi seringnya lebih dewasa dalam bertingkah dan berpikir daripada aku. Dua orang yang justru lebih paham apa yang harus dikerjakan dan dilakukan daripada aku. Dua orang yang menopang aku pas ketika jadi pengangguran. Dua orang yang kadang masih  ku cuekin kalau cerita, atau gak fokus ku dengarkan, atau sering kesal karna tindakan, perbuatan, kata-kata, atau entah apa lagi. Dua orang yang, seperti kata bapak, udah jadi teman sekongkol ku, dimana kami sering sekali bekerja sama saat bekerja dan bersama. Dua orang yang entah gimana bisa hebatnya nerima awak yang gini-gini aja.

>> SATU ORANG yang selama setahun ini udah sering banget aku repotin. Aku mau ngajuin resign tiga kali, dan tiap kali, pasti cerita. Pasti nanya. Pasti curhat. Aku nangis di atas ojek, curhat. Aku sedih banget karna entah apapun itu, curhat. Aku lagi kesel karna ada aja di dunia ini yang kayaknya gabisa bikin aku bahagia, curhat. Aku lagi bete karna entah hal kecil yang ganggu, curhat. Aku lagi bego dengan segala kejadian gak penting macam salah lantai apartemen atau takut di apartemen liat bayangan yang ternyata tanganku sendiri, curhat. Aku yang sering gak nyambung juga pas diceritain, eh curhat. Bahkan giliran dia yang lagi cerita, eh aku masih bales curhat. Mungkin emang seringnya aku cuma ngerepotin sama jadi beban doang, maapin ya. Tapi beneran kok, aku bakal ngurang-ngurangin curhat, dan yang jelas juga ngurangin ngerepotin taun depan. Maapin juga kalo seringnya bikin kesel karna aku gak nyambung atau lama banget ngertinya. Maapin juga karna aku kadang kena mood swing parah dan dijutekin; atau malah jadi pelampiasan buat aku marah-marah. Makasihnya sih banyak banget, gatau untuk apa aja. Makasih udah dengerin, mau ngasi saran, berulang-ulang ngingetin, sampe ya sabar-sabar aja gitu padahal kejadiannya ya itu lagi itu lagi dan akunya aja yang bandel bukan main. Bahkan sampe hal super gak penting yang masih aja dikerjain padahal asli, sekali lagi, gak penting sama sekali.

>> SATU ORANG yang, kenalnya sih baru, baru banget bahkan ketika aku masuk di kantor yang baru ini, tapi eh tapi, masak ya punya kesamaan yang banyak banget. Punya jalan idup yang entah gimana, lucu banget juga. Dan dalam waktu dekat bisa dekat. Luar biasa banget sih, sobat gibahku ini. Beneran kayak dipertemukan di acara Jalinan Kasih sih ini kita, semacam takdir begitu kayaknya. Mentok udah jadi curahan cerita hal-hal yang macam-macamnya, gak pernah juga diceritakan ke siapa-siapa. Luar biasa dalam waktu singkat bisa jadi tong sampahku untuk semua cerita-cerita sampahku. Semoga kuat-kuat aja ngadapin gue, karena itu juga sebagai latian ibu kuat ngadepin kembaran gue.  Tahan-tahanin aja ye, itung-itung lagi try out ibaratnya. Ujian sesungguhnya mah, kalau udah sering belajar sama gue, ya 80 sampai 90 persen bisa lah lulus sama produksi cetakan yang sama denganku itu. Segala pake ngasi hampers, jadi enak.

Hello there February!

Tadinya gue mau langsung nulis review film, tapi kayaknya kok ya ga enak. Udah ganti bulan, trus gue tanpa basa-basi langsung review. Ya ga masalah juga sih, blog juga blog gue ini lol.
But anyway, I decided not to, and, have a little 'opening' post in the new month.

Sebelumnya, maafkan gue karena gue ga ngepost apa-apa lagi selain 2 post di bawah selama buluan Januari, dimana tragisnya adalah, gue janji bakal lebih sering nulis di post-an sebelum ini. And look what happened to that promise *deep sigh*

Anyway, this is going to be a quick update for whatever happened the whole month, in January.

Okay, jadi, pertama adalah, kini gue sudah pengangguran. It's been a week, actually. Dan, believe it or not, badan gue masih terbiasa bangun jam 7, hingga akhirnya, BARU TADI PAGI, gue tidur jam 7 kurang di pagi hari, dan bangun jam 10an. Butuh seminggu supaya badan gue bisa balik ke masa-masa kejayaannya menjadi kalong panutan bangsa abad ini. I still can't believe it. Need to train it more, I guess.

Anyway, pengangguran sih sebenernya gak bener-bener pengangguran. Well, I really have no - I mean, literally NO - plan, like, what will happen next, to be honest. Might as well just enjoying this "free time" for a while. But, since we really really have no plan, we stumble from here to there, and cannot make any plan at all, regarding job, event, next thing to do, career path, life, jodoh, and so on.

Well, let me tell you the story. As you probably knew, or maybe you don't, gue berhenti kerja selain karena kontrak gue udah berakhir untuk 3 bulan, juga karena rencana jadi dosen yang sudah digaungkan sejak tahun lalu, which is why we asked for 3 months period only instead of 6 months offer from our last office. Anyway, those plan probably stand still, but the story got twisted. Jadi, yang awalnya bakal jadi dosen di Jakarta aja, tiba-tiba agak bergeser dengan kemungkinan jadi dosen di universitas negeri di Medan, and that means, yes, tinggal di Medan.
Balik ke Medan.
Hidup di Medan.

That. Was. Never. Crossed. My. Mind. Anymore.

I don't know. I enjoy spending my holiday in Medan, but live my life there - tho Dad said it just for 2 or 3 years maximum - sounds, idk, unreal? I mean, sure I knew the place, like I spent 18 years of my entire life living there. And, tho I left Medan for like almost 8 years now, I came back once or twice and I still can catch up with some improvement.

And again, living my life there seems unreal.

There's a lot of things to be considered. Besides, I enjoy being here, the big city with all the problem and shit. Cannot imagine myself need to adapting again with all those things. I just, cannot.
First, I cannot make any event anymore, and that's kind of important. No, that's not really the first and biggest problem, I just write down what's in my mind.
Second, live in my house again - which is quite pinggiran - will probably a problem, and need effort, and kinda annoys me. From my house to the city, it will take around 1,5 to 2 hours on the road. And not like in Jakarta, which is actually close - but makes it long and far cause of the traffic -, in Medan, it is actually "that far", no kidding. And if we add traffic to it, then damn man! The real "tua tua di jalan" will work.
Third, I don't think I will have my life here, in Medan. Connection to TV and radio, networking that I've been working on these whole time, all those free concert invitation when I'm lucky, my friends here, people I usually hangout and chat with, and all those thing, will not be there for me in Medan. I mean, sure I still can get in touch with them via all those social media, but I mean, it will feel different. Way too different.
Forth, I still root for Justin's fcking world tour here. If I live in Medan, I will need extra money to buy plane ticket to Jakarta. And even if I want to watch in Singapore, tho the plane ticket is cheaper, but I will watch alone, like I mean, no crew, no friend, no one I know, alone. CAN YOU IMAGINE.

Yeah right, those list shows how egoist I am, how subjective it is, and well, how non mature I act. But I mean, seriously, I just cannot.
Those are not all the reasons, but still tho, at least you get the picture.

And anyway, since there still a lot of 'needs' and 'will' here that should be considered, there's a plan of me going to Medan, at least to think about it, for a month or two. And then, that's the problem. Cause there is nothing that can assure me what should I do, I cannot make any plan, for myself, or for other people.

Errggghh, now I rant way too much. I was just going to post review of another Pinoy movie at the first time actually.

Let just left it there then. I already watched like 7 Pinoy movie since New Year, and the only post about review is the last one, and 2 movies in 1 post. I should really post more review, for real.

Anyway, on a side note, did you guys watch the trailer of Me Before You, from the book with same title by Jojo Moyes? I def cannot wait to watch it, and didn't finish the book yet. But seriously, I will not miss it for the world.

Might as well put the trailer, so here you go.


Well, that's gonna be the thing related to Month Of Love, I guess. I don't even know why I put that as the title, and relate it with this movie. I mean, the movie is going to be released on around June this year.
Fine, just the word Love, that's the silver line.

I think I need my red wine.


February 6th, 00.22
Cheers !

RAP

FIRST BOOK REVIEW IN 2K15. YEEAAAAYYYY!

Feels kinda sad actually, when I checked my goodreads, and the whole 2015, I only read 2 books until now. TWO! What the hell did I do with my life?! And books that are on 'currently reading' categories are like 3 or 4. I remember I didn't put like 2 other title of books, but I will not read it anyway, cause I read like 10 or 20 minutes of it, and bored already. Yeah dammit.

Anyway, also kinda sad cause I didn't come here earlier, not even for my birthday. I remember last year I came here the very first day after my birthday, in the middle of the night from a super hectic day, with presidential election and stuff, and I still have time for my blog, writing couple of goals and stuff. But this year? It's been a month and 6 days today, and I still have no time time to write another life goal and birthday or life update related thingy. Sad.

But I'm not here for that. I'm here to review a book.

Dalam dunia penerbangan, dikenal istilah critical eleven, sebelas menit paling kritis di dalam pesawat—tiga menit setelah take off dan delapan menit sebelum landing—karena secara statistik delapan puluh persen kecelakaan pesawat umumnya terjadi dalam rentang waktu sebelas menit itu. It's when the aircraft is most vulnerable to any danger.
In a way, it's kinda the same with meeting people. Tiga menit pertama kritis sifatnya karena saat itulah kesan pertama terbentuk, lalu ada delapan menit sebelum berpisah—delapan menit ketika senyum, tindak tanduk, dan ekspresi wajah orang tersebut jelas bercerita apakah itu akan jadi awal sesuatu ataukah justru menjadi perpisahan.
Ale dan Anya pertama kali bertemu dalam penerbangan Jakarta-Sydney. Tiga menit pertama Anya terpikat, tujuh jam berikutnya mereka duduk bersebelahan dan saling mengenal lewat percakapan serta tawa, dan delapan menit sebelum berpisah Ale yakin dia menginginkan Anya.
Kini, lima tahun setelah perkenalan itu, Ale dan Anya dihadapkan pada satu tragedi besar yang membuat mereka mempertanyakan pilihan-pilihan yang mereka ambil, termasuk keputusan pada sebelas menit paling penting dalam pertemuan pertama mereka.
Diceritakan bergantian dari sudut pandang Ale dan Anya, setiap babnya merupakan kepingan puzzle yang membuat kita jatuh cinta atau benci kepada karakter-karakternya, atau justru keduanya.

kisses xx

I was not planning to write this. Damn I never plan to write this kind of thing.
But after week of mourning over Derek being dead there, in the series that has him for these 11 years, I mean ELEVEN FREAKING YEARS, and he got his 'exit way' by getting hit by a truck, and not getting the kind of treatment he supposed to get, I just can't.

I watched Grey's Anatomy since season 1. Yes, I have couple of episodes I skipped here and there, either because I can't find the episode online, or I don't have time to buy the whole-season-dvd, or other reason, I skipped some. But Yes, I also had that time of endless marathon, watching couple of episodes in a row, just because I can't stop, not even an hour, to put another episode up on my laptop.

But, we all know Derek is dead already. He's not gonna get back to Grey's Anatomy, thanks to Shonda Rhimes I guess, and all those diva's act and rumors and stuff. After Christina Yang on season 10, and now Derek on season 11, I myself already got enough with this season, so I decided I won't watch any episode or season anymore, and I stop at season 11 finale, tho I skipped episode 23, and only download episode 24 because they finally gave the mourning and desperate episode in honor of Derek being gone. But I didn't watch it yet.

Well, we're not gonna talk bout that episode, or how desperate I am because of his death. We all know Derek and Mer is one of the Best 5 Couples From Series, according to me, of course, and how much I love the series. So, as this is actually my first listicle post, I will talking about how I think Derek Shepherd is the perfect guy.

1. He is hot as fuck
There is a reason he's called McDreamy. I won't give a lot of description on this part, I'll let you give the comment. You'll get the point. Or maybe you already have?

2. He is a doctor
And not just a doctor, he is a neurosurgeon. And even better, he is one of the best neurosurgeon America can offer. He's here and there, he is well known for his research and technique, and he's even got called for a work for president, I mean, are you kidding?


3. He is a little bit cocky, and he knows it
Well blame me, blame me. I have this little... i don't know, feelings for arrogant? I feel like people who know themselves, should be confidence, tho sometimes, they crossed the line from being confidence, to arrogance, but yeah, guilty woman typing this, so judge me, that's fine.

4. He is also known as someone who know what he wants in his life
Again, confidence. And by knowing what you want, you can out yourself in the way, be focus in your target, and achievement you want to reach. That is another point for being a man who can set his focus on thing he want to get. And that's not only about goals or future plan, but also about the person who he loves.
Especially about the person who he loves.


5. And sweet mouth surely is something that every man need, even a little
I mean, right? RIGHT?!


6. Oh, and sweet mouth means romantic


7. I mean, he wanna build a house and settle down and grown old together
And when he said "I wanna build us a house," he literally means build a house. Like from the scratch. We remember that, right?



8. And he is so strong
He's been through a lot. We when he got shot and almost dead. We also remember the plane crash. We remember he almost lost his hand. We remember how devastated he was when he can't operate because of his hand. But then, HE'S BACK.




9. Also an amazing dad
Look how cute he is when he was with Zola. Tho too bad we will not really have quite a lot moment to see him with Bailey, but we all know he is awesome with kids.


10. He really understand woman
As all his siblings are woman, he really knows how to treat woman rights. No wonder people can relate to him, and sometimes, ask for advice from him.


11. And he is of course an amazing husband
He gave up his candidacy to be working with the president, so that he can stay with Mer and their children. He just can't choose work over family, because he knows how important his family, his wife, and his kids for him. He really understand Mer's struggle therefor he then choose to stay, tho Mer keep pushing her to take the job.



Derek has been here with us for 11 season, and he left at episode 21. He will always be my fave character in Grey's Anatomy, tho I sometimes hate couple of things he did. But now as it is the time to say goodbye, I should realize he is gone, and remind myself that he's not going to come back.

But thank you Derek Christopher Shepherd, thank you for the 11 season, 11 years, 11 amazing years. I know it was meant to be, I know I decided to watch Grey's Anatomy, and bought 3 seasons and watch marathon in a night, was not a mistake, was not a coincidence. I know there's a reason I even put you in couple of my stories I wrote, even one in my book that being published. I know I adore you for a reason.

Finally, RIP Derek. I love you

First of all I am really happy that I can access my blog again. YEEAAAY! I've been off for like almost a year, last post was from around October 2013, and it's already July 2014.
And it's already July 10th.
I was kinda busy the whole day, yesterday - since it's 1 am on July 10th already - doing all the presidential election yesterday, yet, I have no time to update anything here, especially since yesterday was my birthday.
So I am 24 now.
To be honest, I feel a lil bit weird. I haven't celebrate my birthday for quite long I guess. Well, I mean, with my family. Been living far away from your hometown for like 5 or 6 years, make it kinda impossible to celebrate it every year with the full squad.
Anyway, what's special for this year is, yes, the presidential election that happen at the same day as my day.
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So it's all start with the eager to choose and use my voting rights for the better Indonesia. Apparently it's not as easy as how KPU announce and keep telling on the website or social media. I need to give the copy of my identity card, getting 'letter of approval' from Pak RT, being directed from one TPS to another, and getting super slow respond and service, until I finally can vote at around 12.45 if I'm not mistaken, at TPS 14, RT 010 RW 06.

situation at the TPS around 40 minutes before 'should be closed' time

But well, at least I can vote. I did. I gave my voice, tho it just one voice, but I believe it matters.
So anyway, for now I am 24 years old, well, yesterday, I was not planning for doing any kind of thing. I mean, I am kinda broke right now tho, dont even have money so yeah. We have lunch with sis Hanna after the voting thingy, and get back at around 3 or 4 I guess. Then we're just stay at kosan until apparently around 8, Opin and Tri came with a cake and sang Happy Birthday.

TWENTY FOUR.
It's funny how I don't feel anything changed like, a big change in my life. Nah. It's been flat for too long. Lately I've been lack of eager and any kind of feeling, like I don't even think I wanna do anything except sleeping all day and mourning on my stupid life.
Duh.
But well, last night, we have the 'talking listening session' with God - yep, 1 of my goal for this year - and I also listing couple of things I should achieved before I get another year being added in my life.
Before I reach 25.
25. One fourth of a decade. Silver.
And it feels surreal.
But anyway, I think I will put the list here. This will also become a reminder for me to be more and more and more, in a good way of course. This will help me remember what I wanna get, what I want to achieved, and what should be deleted from my life.
Couple of goals are actually another goals, same things from year to year, which apparently, not achieved yet. But some might be new. Or at least I thought so.
So, in this yeas, 24 my age - lol - I wish I can complete these below and achieved what I should get before I hit 25.
DO
- Have more time with God. Talk with him. I learned about how God can gave you so much blessing but then take it in a short time, as simple as that. I can't be arrogant or being full of my self, for what I get, and what I have, are all came from Him and Him alone. I also think that maybe, me having flat life and has no 'fire in spirit' anymore, is because I've been far far away from Him, for quite a time. Since the new year, I don't really have time to talk to Him in special time, like I acted like damn busy woman who has no time at all for 'not-so-important-for-now-God moment.
- Be more responsible. I can say I am proud enough of myself for this year, for what I have done, especially in doing couple of event, that, I can say, quite well and went great, and I do my responsibility. But then, before my birthday, reality hit me damn right. It's already my concern actually that I have no good in managing time, especially for it is not a job, but a side activity. Dad was - we can say - mad at me, because he transfered around 5M rupiahs last month, and I have no idea at all where the money went. Well, I might did, for couple things, but it also shows that I still lack of responsibility, especially with my money. I will try to take a note if it has something to do with money, for I, will not lost it and don't know where it goes.
- Learn more, talk less, no not-really-important activity anymore. Last semester was a disaster. Started on February, January actually, with the biggest event I ever held, I have event and another event like every month. I started losing focus. I have no idea what I learned in class, what the lecturer was talking about, and what the hell are those test and exams. It was a disaster. I think I kinda focus on events too much, yet I forgot about what I am really: a master degree student majoring in Business Law. So yeah, my grade was downgraded, fall like a fat ass bitch stand on a banana peel. It was awful. I can say mom and dad was disappointed on me, and dad even asked mom to come to Jakarta, just to talk to me, cause he knew I will feel hurt if he talk to me directly. Well, he still realized he's no good in talking sweet lol. But anyway, it made me realize about it, in hard way, and mom reminded me about how much money they spent for the tuition and another stuff they should pay for me. And for I will be the one who having the degree and the proud feeling and stuff when I finally graduated later. So yeah, this semester I should work like a btch. WERK. Work damn hard I will really serious on making good grades, and definitely have no time for so called event. No time. This is another battle, that's one thing I should realize by now. And for I will start looking for the theme of my thesis, I really need to be a law school student and not a high school kid anymore.
- Have 5 books before 25. This has been - kinda - my obsession since my first book being published. I really wanna have 5 books being published before 25, and now it feels so closed. I had 4 books already, tho 1 is a indie book publishing, but I sent it to a publisher already. And 1, the omnibook, is on process for now, since I got the good news already on February, and I've sent another script as the last book of my Vissa-Adel trilogy, and hope it will make it. And also keep writing. It's been so long, since February I guess, that I stop writing. I don't know, maybe I'm too busy with the event, have no time with the class for Uni and Mandarin course, or it just that I'm lazy or has no inspiration. But whatev, I def gonna write more. I have to.
- Get ready to be a lil polyglot person. Being obsessed with France for years, since Junior High, means nothing if you still procrastinating in learning the damn language. You have the duolingo for a years, yet you're not moving from that damn 7th level? Oh come on! And also as we learned Mandarin language for couple of months now, we should use it more often, so that we can understand and have skills of 3 international language and being cool af. Don't you want to work for that international organization, or at very least, Minister of Foreign? So come on, get cray cray over it. Push your self harder, and no procrastinating for this.
- Get a job that can make me move my body and now just sleep all day and party all night. I mean yeah well, it's not really possible with all this 'being in university as master degree student' thing for now, but at least, maybe like a side job that make you go outside and socialize and not being a zombie living your own life like no other people exist. It can be doing blogging thing as food blogger or whatev it is, or anything bout social media as we concern and kinda good enough on it. Do good things on internet, and not just browsing here and there with no good. Have a life, please.
- Have significant other. Well, I don't know why people are so bothered by this, I mean like, is 24 making you looks like you should get married in a month or two? I know mom get married when she's 22, and having me when she's 23, but come on. What if I tell her, that I wanna get married around 27 or 28? Like I have no decent job for now, I have no money monthly, I am a mature woman who still asking help from them and above all, I am being controlled for having social life. Nah, I actually being controlled for like half of my life. How do you expect me to have a boyfriend, if your dad keep calling you at 7, and ask you to get home soon cause it's LATE already. Like, it's Jakarta, not Medan. It's Jakarta where 6 is the time we go out, not get back home. It's def not my goal for this year, I just being irritated enough, I feel like I need to write this down.

DON'T
- Be lazy, lazy, procrastinating, and lazy. It's been too long. It might look funny or something when you're still in your late -teen or early twenties, but now, it's not something to laugh at. Well, maybe it is, but it's because you're so stupid for keep procrastinating, and later on, you miss everything and fail. FAIL
- Get me wroooong, you know you right..... Well I'm sorry, I just sang it in my head. It's part of As Long As You Love Me song lol
- Get too hype over things you can't confirmed yet. Another lesson being learned. You are such a good person bik, but that's what make you stupid. People tend to do bad things, aimed it or not, and you, as a person, should not believe 100 percent to anyone, at all. Be suspicious a little. It's not a crime to not believe people, or at least, put too much faith on someone, yet they broke it and just walk away like that cause damn they dont care or even give a shit. In the end, you're the only one being responsible for everything, when people only saw the happiness and stuff. Be rash or maybe even a little rude to someone.
- Think too much, act less, and work slow. You're not really that brave when you talk to someone or giving opinion, yet you think about what people think about you too damn much, it eat you inside. You should be more blunt, more brave in stating your opinion and argument, and let people know, really know what you feel, truly feel. Unless you really wanna destroy your own life, you should think about this and do it.
- Be scared a lot, especially in doing things. Be optimistic a little will you? But not too much. You are not even believe in yourself, how could people can believe in you. I know it's hard, but it worth a try. They don't think about you that much, so don't think too much like will they get hurt or not when you say things and stuff. Besides, believing your self is actually a start.
- Be so full of yourself, arrogant, and damn royal when you have money. Cause damn, God can take it any minute. Your money is not your money alone. Think about how hard you get it, how much effort you put to make it, and how will you ended up the moment you have no money anymore. It really is a short time when you can be damn rich in a moment, and broke af next day. So, think more before you spent that damn money, and be nicer when you serve the people. You're not the boss here.

I honestly can't think bout anything more to add here, but if I do later, I will def put an update on it. I really hope I can do all these this year, and get the result later on, 360ish days since today.


-xox
@ribkadel